contact: antichowcarla@gmail.com

Here I am

Daily writing prompt
What are you curious about?

I’ve always been curious/nosey about other people’s lives, what actually goes on in the four walls of their homes. You can think you know someone quite well, maybe you work alongside them for years and talk to them about everything under the sun, only to realize they were actually a hoarder and their place quite condemned.

It always fascinates me to know that what you see on the outside can look very different from what you might see if you were a fly on the wall.

I’m curious about relationships. Why do people stay, why do people go? More so the stay part to be honest. Usually there is a reason to leave and exiting the situation is the logical next step, it’s going with the flow. But even when people stay in relationships, there’s often unresolved issues and never going to be resolved issues. Yet they stay, they swim upstream.

I’ve written this before, how after I left my husband and started a new life, on my own with my kids, different ladies would confide in me their own unhappiness. They would want advice on how and why I took the leap out of my marriage. They would say they were quite unhappy and had been for years, how nothing’s changed and will change. They end the conversation by saying they are going to do it, to leave, to kick him out or whatever. But ten years has gone by and there they are, living supposedly so unhappily, going on vacations with the monster of a husband they don’t even love.

That blows me away. So what changed? Or did they just get too lazy? Was it too much work or too scary to be on your own?

I hope I don’t come off sounding like I’m advocating for relationships to end. But if you are living each day unhappy and you’ve tried and tried to make things work and they’re not, then I don’t believe in staying in unhappy situations. But I am very curious on why and how people stay.

On a different topic, I’m curious about how my fellow WordPressers got here. How they found this platform and had they tried others. What made them decide to start a blog.

For me, I’d been writing for our local newspaper and when it changed ownership I was no longer interested in writing for it, the standards it held dropped considerably. I was left only journaling in my personal diary.

My mom had suggested years ago to try a blog but I didn’t honestly even know what a blog was or what someone wrote in a blog. So I spent some time googling and reading different blogs on different platforms.

Somehow and for some reason I chose WordPress and here I am.

img_7039
Wayyy too much of a close up lol

14 responses to “Here I am”

  1. Outward appearance and reality sometimes are completely different. You never really know the true story

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Ain’t that the truth!

      Liked by 1 person

  2. People are strange. Sometimes they exaggerate too. I mean you should always listen but I have known people to say that their partner is horrible but really its just that they are mad at them about something. 🤷‍♀️

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Most definitely yep 👍🏼

      Liked by 1 person

  3. The hardest thing for me was admitting that I was unhappy and then making the move to break away. Initially, I stayed because of the kids. When the arguing became more and more frequent and the kids asked why we were yelling, I knew it was time. It was doing more damage than good.

    That said, I don’t claim to have no part in the demise of our marriage. I don’t blame her completely. I tell my side, she tells hers and when you put the two together somewhere in there lies the truth of what happened.

    My ex hated when I wrote blogs on MySpace. “You tell people too much.” It was the same when I was on the radio. I’d tell a story and she’d hate that I was sharing it with the audience. I stopped blogging because of her insistence. When I was going through the divorce, my therapist asked how I cope with things and I mentioned that I used to write. She encouraged me to try it again. I found WordPress and have been very happy with the platform and have enjoyed interacting with fellow bloggers.

    Fantastic photo of you, by the way 🙂

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Thanks so much for sharing that!
      I feel the same about my marriage ending, MOSTLY his fault lol but no, I wasn’t perfect either…I think either our marriage counselor or mediator said something similar…there’s your story, his story and somewhere in the middle is the truth.
      And thanks for sharing your journey to get to WordPress…I really love this little community and I am also very “open book” and always have been…my kids tease me about what an oversharer I am….even the kid working the McDonalds drive thru isn’t spared lol

      Liked by 1 person

  4. “Somehow and for some reason I chose WordPress and here I am.”

    I think that might be true for a lot of us! Lol 😆

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Lol well to be more specific, I think I googled “blogs” and this popped up! But so did lots of others 🤷🏻‍♀️

      Liked by 2 people

  5. You look so summer, and I love the necklace. 🙂

    I’ve had so many blogs over the years. I’ve just always wanted to write, and there’s a feeling about writing and knowing someone else ‘might’ read it. A blog I wrote on for years had maybe 5 people total who ever read and commented, but I would still write because of that feeling, quite different than writing in a vacuum.

    I understand your feelings about leaving and staying. Life is really hard for me in some ways, because I didn’t stay in the marriage and don’t have supportive/any family other than those I take care of. Which doesn’t mean I’m not thankful not to be living with him, or that I don’t know it was the right choice, but it cost a lot in several ways.

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Oh I hear ya Stephanie….very envious of those people who leave marriages and lose nothing but the ball ‘n chain.
      My own sisters were very angry with me for quite a while (for leaving my alcoholic ex-husband, go figure), we didn’t speak for about a year…they’ve come around and one apologized but it’s never been the same. Not to mention my best best friend in the world, the biggest loss 🤨

      Liked by 1 person

      1. It’s so sad, honestly. People find it hard to fathom what another person goes through inside their situation, but that shouldn’t be the case when someone knows you so well.

        Thankfully your sisters apologized, and hopefully over time you’re able to bond in ways that erase that sting. ❤

        Liked by 1 person

    2. Oh and thx! Yes a bit too much sun lol and the necklace was a Mother’s Day gift from my kids 🙂

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Super pretty!

        Liked by 1 person

      2. Thank you ☺️

        Like

Leave a comment