I watched a YouTube video and now I cut my own hair. I already colour it myself so why not go all the way and just cut it myself too right? I have zilch patience for sitting in a hairdresser’s chair. It’s pretty easy too. With all the teasing and curling/straightening I do to mine it’s just always disaster-ish so it’s not like anyone will notice the imperfections.
As far as lessons go, I’m getting better at believing and being okay with the fact that some people who come into your life aren’t meant to stay. I had a hard time with that one when I lost my best friend. She’s not dead, she’s just not my friend anymore. Which sounds so grade seven but it’s kind of complicated.
Now that we are deep inside the belly of winter, although technically it doesn’t start until Saturday the twenty-first (my birthday), I’m learning to just take winter for what it is. I read something yesterday and reposted on my story on Instagram ’cause I loved it so much, about the differences between summer and winter. How we don’t have to act like it’s summer when it’s winter. How are moods are affected in winter versus summer. How are energy is lower in winter versus summer. And how all of that is okay.
It’s okay. I learned it can be okay. I’ve always been of the mindset that no matter what’s going on in my life nothing is going to slow me down. Not a divorce, not a death and certainly not the brutal cold and minimal sunshine that winter brings. I will force myself to carry on like a trooper and not slow down or make changes.
I am learning that it’s okay to be inside if it’s minus thirty-seven degrees Celsius outside, even if I want to be out for a walk. It’s okay to sit still, stay warm and cozy. To lay on the couch in the afternoon and just relax or watch TV, even if I want to be outside puttering in my flowers. When the sun isn’t rising until after nine am and it’s getting dark at three forty-five pm, I need to just accept that. It’s not summer.
It will all be okay. My family will be fine even if I do less. The IG account that opened my eyes yesterday to all of this is @iamannikanicole if anyone is interested.
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