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Stupid expectations

Daily writing prompt
Describe something you learned in high school.

I feel like the three years I spent in high school taught me absolutely nothing.

They were probably some of the worst years of my life. I was lonely, bored, apathetic, depressed and unpopular. I went from being the grade 9 class Valedictorian to being a nobody in grade 10. Just a face in a sea of faces.

When I look back and examine it now, I think possibly it might have gone down differently if my parents had said yes to any of my requests to join extra-curricular activities.

For years I had begged them to let me join the Air Cadets, but it was always a no. I wanted to join band as well, the saxophone had really appealed to me but that was also a resounding no. I probably would have played volleyball as well if someone had suggested, hey why don’t you join the volleyball team? But nope.

I think my high school experience was made worse because of the expectation of it I’d had, prior to going into it. Stupid expectations. If I’d only known then to expect nothing, it might not have felt like such a let down.

I’d had this image in my head of how it was going to be, probably based off of tv shows or movies. Football games, riding around in cool cars, skipping class to do fun terrible things. But none of that really happened.

Okay reading this back is kind of sad and depressing, geez, no wonder I didn’t have a good time.

It’s all good now though, it was a million years ago and not long after I graduated I was able to delve into really living life and having a good time.

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My younger sister Gena & I, spring of ’96 I think, I was done high school and shacked up with “psycho man”

2 responses to “Stupid expectations”

  1. i lived the other side of your expectations in high school CJ. it was all fake, time consuming and incredibly senseless – a crap derivative of the entire western world knowing peace and prosperity. people took high school life and drama so seriously that one of them ended up getting shot and killed over it in a party i went to. you would think this all stops with adulthood but as I discovered, this is where you have to learn that the entire system is like this. and as such why I’m so determined to engage it in the most limited of limited ways. Mike

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    1. Wow that’s really interesting Mike, to hear your side of it…I guess this should make me happy to have had the lame experience I did.

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