Write about a time when you didn’t take action but wish you had. What would you do differently?

This is a far reach but honestly when one looks back at their life, there are so many what ifs and what could have beens.

And maybe I would have ended up dead or cut into pieces and a rug made out of my skin, but when I was eighteen and enjoying the freedom of adulthood, I met a guy in the bar. He was a bit older than me but from the same town as I. He had a plan to travel to a faraway place, I don’t honestly remember if it was Thailand or where, and teach English.

I know now this is actually a thing. I personally know people who’ve done it and loved it. But to the naive little farmgirl I was at the time, discussing picking up and moving to another continent, with someone who was basically a stranger, in a dark and smoky bar, it was both exciting and ludicrous.

He was trying to talk me into it. I said I was interested. I was. I had graduated high school but was feeling a bit lost and out of place. I hadn’t mapped out my career and was working two part-time jobs. I was looking for something exciting to grab onto.

I talked to others about it in the following weeks but the reality was, I was just too chicken.

I never did it. But I think about it sometimes. How my life would have played out totally different. If I had just been brave.

Or did the powers that be step in and stop me from going, to save me from something sinister that might have occurred to me while there?

You know those what ifs. You come across an accident and you think yikes, if I had just been on the road five minutes sooner, that might’ve been me. Or if I had taken that route versus this route, that drunk driver might’ve had a head on collision with me. But you didn’t and they didn’t.

Maybe me not going to Thailand was my didn’t.