That’s easy to answer today. If I won the lottery I’d quit my job, which kind of sucks because I love my job, and stay at home being a foster parent. Old news to anyone who reads my blog.
I still have this little tiny baby RR. It was supposed to be for just one night until they found a more permanent home for him but so far they can’t find one. I would love to keep him but there aren’t any daycares that take one month old babies. And I need to work. I can’t afford to stay home.
Plus, the thought of doing everything all over again scares the crap out of me. All the diapers, the worries over daycare, potty training etc. It’s a lot. And I feel like we just did it all over again when Sid came into our lives almost four years ago.
Also, the part about raising a really good human is much pressure. Much, much. It’s one thing to provide love and a good home. Do the birthday parties, trick or treating, the tooth fairy. But it’s quite another to realize that the success in life of this little person depends on you.
I’m lacking sleep big time and should be napping right now while baby is but for some reason I can’t relax enough to fall asleep.
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