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Not ready

She says, in tears, her life has always felt so hard

She’s caught between making the wrong decision and the wrong decision

But there is no wrong decision

It’s her head versus her heart

The bump, now noticeable to more than just her eyes

There’s very little time left to pretend it’s not happening

She’s suspended herself in time for weeks and the sand has all but hit the bottom

She says it’s too scary

She’s not ready

She’s never done this before

Maybe if she waits long enough, there will be no time for a decision

There will only be one way out

One way that becomes two people

Life will still be hard

But in a way she’s never known

And the sun will shine every single day

Trust me, I’m your mom

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19 responses to “Not ready”

  1. beautiful, cj. i remember similar feelings when i found i was pregnant at 43. i get this.

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    1. Thank you Susan!! I wrote it from my own perspective, watching my daughter go through this…

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    2. Susan i just realized i would have been 43 if i was Sid’s bio mom and had given birth to him 😊

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      1. may sid keep you as young as kepler is keeping me! sure didn’t expect to be fulltime parenting at 63, but here we are!

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      2. We are loving every second of it!

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  2. Awesome word placement and poem! You got some talent. Keeping my eye on you. 🤭😂

    Alex

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    1. Omg are you freaking serious?! Thank you!!! This was my first attempt at a “poem”.

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      1. Yeah- yeah, you take people on emotional journey. That’s why I stopped by. Keep your pen busy, CJ!

        Alex

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      2. Thanks so much ☺️

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      3. Also if you flesh it out, a little more; you could possibly start a really awesome chapter, full of poetic prose prowess.

        Something to think about. Maybe? 🤔

        😊

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      4. Flesh it out means what, like elaborate and be more descriptive?

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  3. “Life will still be hard ~ But in a way she’s never known”.

    It’s a good “hard”, – like no other she’ll ever know. This post is something I wish someone had shared with me when I was in this situation. You are such an awesome mama to guide to gently and lovingly CJ

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    1. Thank you so much ☺️

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  4. Congratulations on your first poem here CJ, and going right for a deep subject! I love the line about suspended time and sand hitting the bottom especially.

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    1. Thank you so much Stephanie ☺️

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  5. This is so very touching. 💕 Thank you for sharing, CJ.

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  6. That last line was gold. Awesome! 😎👏

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    1. Thank you Darryl ☺️

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