Okay Pema, like I had my answer all ready and then remembered your quote that I screenshot from Pinterest and sent out to my people on Snapchat.
I was about to say that the not knowing of life, the uncertainty of situations, was what makes me nervous. The quote by Pema Chodron says “Rather than being disheartened by the uncertainty of life, what if we accepted it and relaxed into it? What if we said ‘yes, this is the way it is: this is what it means to be human’, and decided to sit down and enjoy the ride?”
So it would be pretty hypocritical of me to preach this to my friends and family but not practice it myself. It’s just that it is difficult to act out this kind of acceptance. In real life.
Clint is having a (hopefully) small health issue right now and the not knowing is so stressful. Possibly even worse on me than him. I worked as a nurse for 24 years, I know all of the terrible outcomes for things. He’s more innocent and probably less of a worrier. I tend to think the worst and I know that.
But seriously how do I relax into it and just be chill about it?
It’s possibly contributing to my blah mood lately but I’m going to get off my ass and just keep going. Force myself to buy and plant those seeds for some flowers and veggies. And I made lunch plans with a friend today, told her I need a pick me up.
Onward and upward…or relaxing into it or whatever.
bloom.planted.north 
Leave a comment