What’s one small improvement when you need to make ten small improvements? There’s always something I need to be better at. Whether it’s for my physical health or my mental health, I know I don’t do enough. Not that I consider myself unhealthy, but there’s plenty of room for improvement. It’s just that life gets in the way.
I had a bit of a health scare last week. As I was going to bed I felt a tightening in my chest. Not pain. It felt like someone had their hands around my heart and was squeezing it. Of course I was in denial that something like this was happening to me. I rolled over the other way.
Tried to imagine what it could be. I felt a sensation going a bit into my armpit and down my arm. Was I imagining this? I didn’t want to cause a scene and wake the whole house up. Definitely didn’t want to go sit in Emerg for hours only to be told it was anxiety or something. And my heart wasn’t pounding or racing, I felt relaxed for the most part.
After fifteen minutes it subsided and I fell asleep. I made a dr’s appointment the next morning. When I came home for lunch that day I had a dull roar in my ears so I checked my BP and it was quite high. At the clinic that afternoon, again, my blood pressure was 157/95.
Anyway, I’m now checking my bp twice a day and recording the results. Well I’m actually only checking it once a day but I’m supposed to be checking it twice. (Nurse make the worst patients). Then in a week I’ll go back with the results.
I also did an ECG and bloodwork.
So now the do better part: I do walk daily. I know I need to add some weight training to that as well. I don’t eat fast food. I don’t smoke or drink. I’m still doing intermittent fasting to try and lose a few pounds. I eat my homemade granola with yogurt and blueberries every damn day.
What more does the world want from me? I practically live an Amish lifestyle. Okay not really. But compared to other people sometimes it feels like it.
bloom.planted.north 
Leave a reply to Stephanie Cancel reply