What does “having it all” mean to you? Is it attainable?
I think appreciating what you do have should equate having it all. But it’s tricky. I fall into these traps myself. Wanting more.
Not even two months ago I made the mistake of looking at real estate online, in my area. Not wanting to move away, but move to the lake. It would mean a twenty minute commute to and from work. No biggie. And I dream of waking up and having my morning coffee on a deck that overlooks the lake.
I set my sights on a gorgeous home, completely out of our price range. I even went to the open house. Did I involve my life partner? Well sort of. He was out of town visiting his parents so while chatting on the phone with him I took my moment to sell him on the idea of living at the lake.
He laughed, as he usually does, at my ideas. But he didn’t resist. I took this as a green light. Got my hopes up. Then when he got home I told him how in love with the house I was and listed all the reasons we needed to make the move, and now.
He was not having it. So I let that dream die, for now.
The thing is, we have a nice house. We’ve made it our own. I honestly can’t imagine packing all this stuff up and starting over someplace else. It’s also a perfect location, minus the part about a deck overlooking a lake. We do have a deck, but it overlooks the backyard where Sid’s toys are, where we can watch him on the trampoline and the soon to be playhouse.
Our house isn’t large, it’s just regular, but a lot of people would kill for this house. There was a time I would’ve killed for this house. So I need to stop wanting more. Wanting better.
I need to take my own advice and just appreciate what I have, which is everything.
Goin’ fishing today! Ice is off the lake, the sun’s out and we’re putting the boat in the water for the first time since last September. Happy Sunday!
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