Which one? There’ve been oh so many times I felt out of place.
Elementary school when I was in neither of the cool kid groups, just the messenger who carried the notes back and forth between them.
High school, where it seemed like everyone else had stuff going on but me. They were busy with sports or band or the yearbook. Always on Monday laughing about their weekend antics. It felt like I watched from the outside.
Summer camp, where the kids all seemed to know each other AND the camp counselors. This bible camp was not a camp from my church or even the same denomination so I was definitely an outsider. I think I had begged my Mom to let me go there because the boy I’d had a mad crush on would be there. It was very lonely.
As I got older I found myself in fewer situations where I felt out of place. You get to be choosier as you age, as to where you go and who you will spend time with.
That’s not to say I always feel like I fit in well but even when I don’t, I’m okay with it. There are some “peopley” situations I’d rather not be a part of. I’m fine with being alone, eating alone. A glass of wine in a lounge alone.
Pretty comfy with wherever I am.
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