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Squirrel!

Create a map of your inner world.

I think part of the problem is there is no map, or the map would be hard to follow. I know it’s time to meditate when my mind jumps around and can’t focus, like a dog when you yell squirrel!

Currently in my brain:

-houses are so cheap and so beautiful in Scandinavia, but I’d probably never move there, but it’s tempting

-I need to track down my golf clubs so I can go golfing Saturday with a friend and her bf but I think they might be in my ex-husband’s garage and Taz said “just text Dad and ask him, even if yours aren’t there, I’m sure he’s got extra he can borrow you”…and for some reason I don’t want to text him and ask

-repeat mammogram and ultrasound of boob are out of the way, now wait (patiently) for results

-I feel like I can’t book a vacation until I know results

-I don’t know if we should go east or west on a vacation, part of me wants to see Montreal (east) but part of me just wants to go where things are comfy and familiar (west), also to see Aunty Janice

-Sid and I have plans to go to the beach today…do I actually go and buy a bathing suit? Or just wear a pair of shorts and sort of wade in to my thighs? I haven’t owned a bathing suit in at least 15 years and not sure I want to see what it will look like.

-oh my god, The Knick, is anyone else watching this right now? I’m watching it on Crave, but is Crave only a Canadian streaming app? Anyway I’d take The Knick over The Pitt or Grey’s Anatomy any old day. It’s fascinating. Suction during surgery used to require a hand crank?? Unreal. There are so many facets to the storylines and characters too. It’s got it all: bad boy/good girl romance, corruption, drug addiction, hookers, families, expectations

-am I going to run for city council? I still don’t know, it lives in my brain day and night.

Going to stop here and do some deep breathing.

I can’t stop obsessing over this transition, and not done yet!
Tad harsh, yes, yet relatable

15 responses to “Squirrel!”

  1. Your eyes resembles Squirrel

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    1. Umm okay thx

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  2. “am I going to run for city council? I still don’t know, it lives in my brain day and night.”
    I did 14 years ago. I would again, but I’d again want a team of supportive extended family and friends who are willing to door knock or drop off flyers. Instead, I support candidates who I’d like to see on council.

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    1. Yeah that’s exactly what I don’t have as well, a team behind me 😬
      And then i think, do i have the chops for this?
      And i hate door knocking lol, i helped a friend capaign before in a provincial election and honestly i wasn’t a fan of door knocking 😩

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  3. here s to healt

    wealth

    and likin yaself

    eh???????????

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    1. ✌🏽

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  4. i say go on vacay where there are no wildfires!! also that transition is fire

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    1. Thanks Rojie 🙂

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  5. Hahaha. You crack me up, CJ. Yes to the bathing suit. Take a look around. You are young and beautiful. And yes to running for public office. We need people like you.

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    1. Awe thanks Mary ☺️
      I did wear the bathing suit and honestly probably cared the least i’ve ever cared about what i looked like in it, that’s the beauty of 49 lol

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  6. That meme was hilarious. 😂 Your hair transition is pretty incredible. 👏

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    1. Thank you Edward!

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      1. You’re so welcome, my friend.

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  7. Yes to the bathing suit and no to calling about golf clubs. I tried watching The Pitt but stopped halfway through the first episode. It was way too graphic for me with health stuff. I liked Gray’s Anatomy because their medical stuff wasn’t too bad and it was more soap than a medical procedural kind of thing but I stopped a few years ago because I just got bored with it. I just looked and it sounds like The Knick is a very graphic medical show.

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    1. I did wear the damn bathing suit!
      But i also did contact him about golf clubs and that worked out cause he had an extra set to let me use 😬
      I *guess* the knick is graphic idk that kinda stuff doesn’t bug me n i barely notice but holy crap the stuff they used to do! I need to google n see if this is actually facts but in the episode i watched last night, one of the dr’s wives is admitted to psych n the psychiatrist pulled all her teeth!!!! He said infection throughout the body can travel to the brain n make her crazy?! He said if it didn’t work next would be her tonsils, adenoids, maybe even part of her colon lol…like did they actually really do that n believe that?!

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